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CHRISTMAS EVE 2010

Sunday, December 26, 2010

I had the best Christmas Eve everrrrrr! Our usual tradition is to have my mom's parents and brother come up and join us for a late dinner and then we open up our presents from each other that night. But this year we decided to do something a little different.

A few weeks before Christmas my mom gave a lesson in Family Home Evening about feeling the Christmas Spirit and doing service during the holiday season. We were reading example stories from the Ensign which were really touching. My mom then asked us what we could do as a family to get into the Christmas Spirit of giving. My dad suggested that as a family we could go visit one of the less active families. He had a family in mind and we planned to make them dinner and drop it off at their place on Christmas Eve. My mom then said she had another idea: to have all the missionaries over for Christmas Eve dinner. Laura and I obviously thought that was a fabulous idea. My dad has been Bishop of the Don Mills ward for about a year now and we only found out a few months ago that we were allowed to have any of the missionaries over whenever we wanted to because my dad is the Bishop. We wanted to do both, but my mom said it would cost too much money, so we had to stick with one.

I don't know what happened, but she definitely changed her mind. Together, we decided that we'd have the all the missionaries over for 6pm, tell them the plan, then drive to the inactive family's house together. We thought it was brilliant. The family wouldn't answer the phone/door to any missionaries, so we were hoping this project would get them to come back to church or to at least have the missionaries talk to them.

The night of Chirstmas Eve, I was busy finishing up the missionaries' Christmas Cards and keeping in touch with all the missionaries to confirm times and stuff. Elders Lusk and Sjoblom were the first to arrive. I had to run and hide in my room so I could finish up their homemade cards. Hermanas Tillet and Wheeler were next to arrive. Elders Smith and Cabral weren't able to make it because they had prior appointments, so we were just waiting for the APs, Elders Lucero and Anderson. They were coming from Trent, so they were going to be late, so we planned they would just meet us at the family's place. Before we left our apartment, we had a group prayer and piled into the van.

We got to the apartment and my dad let us all out first while he went and found a parking spot. There we were, 6 missionaries and a family of 5, practicing singing and excitedly talking about Christmas. Many people passed by the lobby thanking the Elders for being so polite and holding the door open and stuff. We got into an elevator and took it up to the family's apt. We knew they weren't going to open up to the missionaries and my dad had a feeling they wouldn't open up to the Bishop either, SO, they sent Laura and I to knock. It was so funny. It looked like mission impossible, Laura and I knocking on the door as bait, then have my parents and the missionaries jump out from down the hall way to attack. Hahaha. Laura and I knocked and waved the presents in front of the peephole to grab their attention. AND THEY OPENED!!!!! All you could hear were the missionaries whispering "YES!!!" to each other. Laura and I greeted them Merry Christmas and everyone hiding down the hall came out and excitedly greeted them as well. They let us in and we sat there chatting to each other. They had two kids in primary so since I have a calling in Primary, I went over to talk with them. We sang them two Christmas songs: Angels we have Heard on High and Away in a Manger. Not to sound conceited or anything, but we sounded AWESOME. It was a legit choir! You had the Sopranos, Altos, and Bases goin' on!! I wish I could've recorded ourselves; we just sounded THAT good. They gave us some chocolate chip muffins and then we were off to my place.

Instead of going with my parents, Laura and I went in the car with the Hermanas. SO. MUCH. FUN. I can't believe I never used to be close with the sister missionaries...they are SO COOL. Earlier, right before we left my apt, Hermana Wheeler was complimenting my little sister's matching jacket and boots and said "loooooooooove it". Laura was like, "why does that sound familiar?". Then i gasped, "DRAGON TALES!!!". We all started shrieking like girls. Hahaha she couldn't believe we knew what it was. So while we were driving home the only thing we were talking about was The Swan Princess and Barbie movies. We were singing the opening song of The Swan Princess, "This is My Idea", in the car. I was so happy they knew what it was! Lucero and Anderson met us outside the building and as we went up in the elevator together, we asked them the same question: Do you know what SWAN PRINCESS is? And they both said yes!! Then I asked, "All three?". Anderson's like "chyeah". My face lit up and i'm like NO WAY GIMME HI FIVE. All Hermana Wheeler could say was "I think this is the start of a beautiful friendship". Hahaha, she got that right. As we got into the apt, the only thing we could ask each other was if we knew a list of other old movies/tv shows. Talk about blast from the past.

We sat and enjoyed spicy buffalo chicken wings, my mom's famous baked macaroni, ice cream and apple pie and fruit salad. YUM. Tis was fun times. We all agreed that it felt really good to do that bit of service for someone else and also serving the missionaries as well who work so hard to serve us all the time. So it was settled, we decided we'd make that our new family tradition. (:





- Ariana Rae Limas ♥ ☮ ♫
live well . laugh hard . love big .
dec 24, 2010

That's called Limas fam jammin'

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Happy Holidays !

Friday, December 24, 2010

To-do List... T_T

Friday, December 3, 2010

December is a little too over-whelming for me...hear me rant.

[1] Filipino Christmas Party (Dec 4)
I'm emceeing this party, so basically I have everyone coming to me for tasks. I've been emailing and discussing with people over the phone about certain assignments, meet-up times for set up, decorations, food, games, music, etc. It's a whole lot of work. You think being the emcee is just to entertain during the party?...not even. And during this party I have to find time to grab my sisters and our missionaries to take pictures for the surprise we do for them every year. If we don't, then I'm going to have to plan nice outfits for the rest of the month both for Sundays and regular days because i just don't know when I'll be able to grab people for the pictures (yeah, that's how much I'm wanted. i'm being called over the place that sometimes i don't get to be calling people to get my own things done -.-")

Things I'm missing because of this even:
- Holly's surprise 17th birthday party
- Tita Minday's Christmas banquet
- Aryana's YSA gathering (which is when we were supposed to celebrate mine and Nathan's birthday)
- Study Time.

[2] SUNDAY (Dec 5)
What's my to-do list on this day?
- Photocopy program
- Attend the 3 hrs of church
- Practice "Sing for Christ is Born" with Ida
- Play "Sing for Christ is Born" to practice the Relief Society
- Baptism
- Practice playing "Believe" for the Young Women
- Practice playing "O Holy Night" with the Trio
- Choir practice
- General Presidency Christmas Devotional
- Practice singing "'Twas a Silent Night" with Ensemble

[3] Modes of Fantasy EXAM (Dec 6)
...wait, when did i have time to study for this? O___O

[4] Drama EXAM (Dec 8)
...oh wow, ONE day to study -.-"

[5] Literary Theory EXAM make-up (Dec 10)
I've mentioned this before. I was supposed to have this exam on Sunday the 12th, but because of the Stake Christmas Musical Fireside I got permission from my Prof to write it on this day instead.

[DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY BOOKS I HAVE TO RE-READ TO STUDY FOR ALL THAT ^?!]

[6] Ward Christmas Party (Dec 11)
So I don't really know what's happening here. But I'm playing the piano for the Relief Society to "Sing for Christ is Born" and "Believe" for the Young Women. Do I have these piano pieces down? NOPE. For some reason, my fingers aren't working with me. I'm practicing them and they sound so flipping horrible >.<>

[7] SUNDAY (Dec 12)
To-do list?
THANK GOODNESS, NO MORE PLAYING THE TWO SONGS!!!! The Ward Christmas party is done and I won't have to practice them anymore!! YAY! But I still need to practice "O Holy Night" on the piano and practice singing "'Twas a Silent Night"...because TONIGHT IS THE STAKE CHRISTMAS MUSICAL FIRESIDE!!! :D I'm soooooooo excited for it. The music is going to be so amazing! Anyone reading this...you're invited to come. Its FREE to come here the Spirit of Christmas (: Oh yeah, and one of my closest friend's boyfriend is being baptized this day. YAY! (but that means more work because I promised her to help out..aka musical presentation).

[8] FREE WEEK (Dec 13-17)
Ok. That's a lie. I'm only calling it a "Free Week" because I don't have any exams or school. But do you know what I need to accomplish this week?!?!?!?!
- Christmas shopping with Laura
- Baking Christmas cookies with Sara for our service project
- Finish up ALL the missionaries' Christmas cards (let me tell you, each one has so much detail, it usually takes a lot of time)
- Finish my Lit Theory essay due on the 17th (yeah, i have to travel ALL the way to school just to hand that in -.-")
- Make the Flipside Tshirts for the Missionaries
- Deliver Christmas cards to the missionaries that are either RMs or the ones abroad.
- STUDY STUDY STUDY FOR NEXT WEEK!!!!

[9] Primary Christmas Party (Dec 18)
I'm in Primary...i HAVE to go.
But a bit of good news!!! Caleb and Jenna, aka Mary and Joseph from our Saviour of the World production this summer (I didn't blog about that experience...i probably should!) ARE GETTING MARRIED :D :D Congratulations to them! Its going to be such a nice story to tell their kids one day..."we met playing Mary and Joseph" hehe cutee (:

[10] Canadian History EXAM (Dec 20)
OH BOY. I don't even know how I'm going to survive this. I like my lecture, I hate those reading he makes us print out. blah.

[11] Children's Lit EXAM (Dec 21)
Yeah I better study well for this one. It's a term course so I have to pass this exam...there's no making up for it. This is the last thing ever from this class, then I'm done....until part II that is.

[12] SERVICE PROJECT (Dec 22 or 23)
Sara and I need to choose a day to give out those cookies we plan to deliver for our service project!!

[13] CHRISTMAS EVE!!! (Dec 24)
Ok, so UGH, Christmas is on a Saturday. So that means Laura and I got to give the missionaries our surprise the day after. This makes planning very difficult because I obviously won't have ANY time whatsoever on Christmas day to bake their cookies or finish up their cards. SO we have to do it on Christmas eve's DAY. And i emphasize day because on Christmas EVE we're going to be helping dad set up for Christmas Eve dinner....

[14] CHRISTMAS!!!!!
You know, the regular tradition....see the fam fam for lunch and dinner :D YAY!

[15] Sunday (Dec 26)
So Boxing Day happens to be on a Sunday. But oh well. I can't complain because A) I'm not tempted to go plan where we're going shopping and B) I can't afford to spend anymore money. But today's the day we give out all the missionaries' surprises!!! I hope I'm not getting too old for this. LOL. we've been doing it since 2007 (i was 16 back then) and now its so weird cuz the missionaries are now around my age, so its like me making things for people in my year. gross. hahaha. but i know the missionaries need to be cared and loved for, so that's why we do it. laura and i call it our little christmas service project. it might not seem much, but we put a lot of effort into those home-made cards. and seeing their reactions are always so priceless (:

[16] FREE WEEK!!! (dec 27-jan 2)
So YAY! I'm finally free!!! Kinda...
So no plans for this week but people want me for things. So this is the "almost planned, but not official" list for this 'free week':
- I have a Drama essay due Jan 5. But i most likely will be writing it like the night before..as usual.
- It's Christine's birthday on jan 2...most likely i'll be called to do something for it
- Sara and I need to start getting together to talk about this book....
- I need to catch up on writing for my own book
- Head start on readings? IF POSSIBLE?
- New Year's Eve/Day: Obviously traditions of New Year's eve dinner (that means no YSA New Year's Eve dance for me), and another busy Saturday on New Year's Day.
- Simmin moved into a new place. They've been bugging me to come see it. Probably this week...

I'M SO SAD THIS YEAR IS OVER! It went by so fast (and its going by even faster with all the stuff for December). Good-bye 2010, you have been SO good to me :')

ANYWAY...
So clearly this list is really over-whelming. And this is only the stuff that is irregular from my schedule. This doesn't include: chores, baby-sitting, family time, church, piano, reading, scripture study, Institute, YSA, and all that other jazz. Its really hard. I like to talk to people to, and because I don't get to see many friends during the school days, when I see some of them on Sunday all we want to do is TALK. And sometimes I barely get time for that because I'm too busy running around trying to get things done. Here's an example:

Last Sunday i did the regular of doing the program. but instead of resting after, laura did my hair, and then we ended up attending the Korean ward cuz they had their primary presentation as well, and there are a few of the Korean kids that i love (Wendy, Eric, and Benjamin), so we went to watch them. when there's was done, we had to set up for ours and i had to get a little practice in. then i had to clean up the decorations from PREF night because i heard they were STILL up. thankfully nathan and bobby helped me take the stuff down. i got back down just when our meeting started. then la la la i had to play the piano for the primary. when Sacrament meeting was done, I was playing the prelude music as people were exiting the chapel. Elder Jung interrupts me because he needs me to open up the library. Its gone around that I'm one of the very FEW who has a code to get into the library, so whenever someone needs it opened, especially the missionaries, they come straight to me. I run up stairs, find that its already open, run back down to tell him, about to head back to the piano, interrupted by a friend's mom visiting the ward and you know, you gotta talk to them..plus she was complimenting me on my playing, so i didn't want to be rude. So i'm about to head back to the piano AGAIN, but some guy (who was hitting on me) starts talking and stuff. I'm not rude, so I talk nicely to the guy. By the time he's gone, my mom comes to me asking me what that was all about. When she's done talking, Laura, Rebecca, and Kim are already there about to talk to me. I don't even get the chance to talk long (which is horrible because I barely ever get to see Rebecca). I attempt to go play piano, but everyone exited so NO POINT. I get upstairs to Primary where everyone's already enjoying treats (which i partly missed). Then I forgot I had to make Elder Baker his bday card. I went to head down to Relief Society, but ended up talking to some of the adult filipinos outside. I then realize that i can't come back upstairs for primary for closing exercises because I have to be in Relief Society for closing exercises to practice the song. So i had to run back upstairs and ask the primary president for permission to stay in RS. I enter RS and they don't end early enough, so we DONT get to practice it as the closing him. But i had to stay to practice for it afterwards. (Mind you, that was the first time in a little while that i got to stay in ANY class for over 10 mins). After playing i had to dash back into the chapel for the baptism, which ALREADY started. Thank goodness for little secrets here and there because Jezreel told me she caught a certain someone staring and smiling at me (which eased my day up a bit..cuz, well, i barely got to talk to him that day cuz i was all over the place). after the baptism i was playing with baby asher on the piano and waht not. then after we had to go put away the trees and tables from the room we used for pref. Then FINALLY i got to sit down and just chill. OH MY GOODNESS. i got to use that chill time to talk to Stacy about the guy mentioned above (: then yeah, i had to go practice with the trio for O Holy Night. then run back out of the gym to the primary room where choir was. then we had to go down because we switched rooms. then after choir we had to stay extra long cuz all the ladies' learned a new song separate from the guys. then i had to stay longer to practice the ensemble with sara and the others. then i got to go home. my goodness, i DID NOT want to go to school the next day.

yeah that's my little rant. I'm just thankful for those people who recognize that i need to be many places at once, like Tita Imee, the Primary President, cuz they make my burden a little more easier and take some of the load off of me. I'm not complaining, cuz i like what i do, but i just needed to let out a little steam...its stressful.


Photos by Wendy G.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Wendy G.

Officially my absolute most favourite photographer!

I love her creativity. I'd have to say that it's my most favourite part of her work. As an (amateur) photographer, I like to take my photos in a specific style. I actually admitted to some friends that if I were to get a photographer for my engagement or wedding photos, I might have trouble not bossing the person around that I want my pictures taken a certain way. BUT NOT WITH WENDY G. I don't care...if I have to go all the way to Utah (which won't be a problem for me cuz i love utah) to get my engagement photos taken, THEN I WILL. And if I have to pay a fortune to have her for my wedding, THEN I WILL. She's just THAT good.

Here's a link to her photo blog: http://www.photosbywendyg.com/blog

I love just browsing though and looking at her photography. Its amazing and I get addicted to looking at them. Mostly just because I hope to be as good as her one day :D

There are SO MANY i like. I wish i could copy and paste the pictures here, but her website doesn't allow that. So here are links to a few of my most favourite photoshoots she had done:

Kaci's Bridal photoshoot: Kaci is absolutely gorgeous. And I love how she was dressed for her this photoshoot. Really romantic stuff. I love the black and white photography, it looks so classic!


Goldhardt Kids photoshoot: I think this is the photographer's nieces and nephews. They're so cute!

Shane & Krista Preece wedding: One of my absolute favourite weddings. Everything about this couple's photoshoots I amazingly adored:
  • Engagement shoot 1: i love love love the one with the polaroid camera shots),
  • Engagement shoot 2: oh my goodness. theses are just beautiful. i love the silhouette dance photos. those are so LEGIT! I had this one photo of my silhouette taken at the temple...and i loved it. I LOVE THESE EVEN MORE
  • Bridal shoot 1: i love how she gets to put her ballet shoes into this.
  • Bridal shoot 2: i just love nature shots. i would personally go for a different looking garden, but meh, these are still good. I like the scenes with the waterfall and rocks a lot better though (:
Cate (baby shoot): OH MY GOODNESS. This is like the cutest baby alive!

Nielson Family shoot: This family is just too cute!!

Presley (baby shoot): THIS BABY GIRL IS SO FREAKIN ADORABLE!

Anyway yeah, those are some of my favourites. Check out her website and blog cause she has a ton more. I think another reason why she's one of my favourites is that she pays attention to detail. And i love detail (I'm an English major, it's what I do :P). Especially with the temple, every single detail of the temple is there to symbolize something. As I am not yet endowed or married, I do not know all the meanings of these symbols of the temple, but when I do get married I would very much like a photographer like Wendy G, because she takes your photos with the beauty of the symbolic meanings of the temple with it. I don't think I could ask for more.

And here's that photo of myself with my silhouette by the temple (:




NINETEEN .

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

I'm 19.
Yeah, it's about time!

It's been a year since my huge debut party. I got to admit, I was having trouble thinking of anything that could possibly beat last year. I make the joke that the next big party I'm ever going to have is going to be at my wedding. Which is true! So within the upcoming hours of my birthday I re-posted some debut videos reminisce.

To be honest, I thought I would have the suckiest day. What are my reasons?

1) I had a History assignment due that day, so that means staying up late the night before. For the record, I was up till 3:30am.

2) I Only got 2.5 hrs of sleep. I had to be at school for 8:30am for my Canadian History lecture.

3) I had a 4 hour break. WHAT.

4) My Children's Lit lecture..one of my more boring classes.

5) I get out of school at 4:30. It takes me and hour and 15 mins to get home. I would be missing the Temple Trip this night...which SUCKS because A) I haven't been to the temple since May and B) it was supposed to officially be my last youth activity. yea, not happening.

6) Last year my party was on Nov 7th. But on my actual birthday, I was talking to a "friend" about our relationship between each other, and we sorta decided that we officially had a mutual understanding. We liked each other but we couldn't date...this started around my birthday party, but it was only on the actual day of my birthday we discussed the serious stuff. Well, let's just say, it didn't even last a month. I hate bringing back those memories. Not pretty. It took me 3 months to get over it.

so you can understand i wasn't really looking forward to it. BUT...you know there are so many little things a person can do that make me happy (:

1) My friend since the 4th grade, Rubab Aquil, was up while I was up writing my essay, and she was counting down to my birthday. And she made me this:

She made this her Facebook profile picture right on November 25, 2010 at 12:00am. And she wrote this as her caption:

To:laughing hyena aka skittle lover aka ari aka my best friend since grade 4
Happy 19th Birthday Darling♥
May you have a beautiful day..full of lots of surprises...may God bless you with All His blessings..May you get whatever you want in life...May you keep smiling always and forever♥
My Goodness Gracious how far do we go back..i dont even know (grade 3 lol but i wanted to say it) i can safely say i have more than a hundred memories with you♥:D You're my beautiful sunshine and i love you so much...till now we have kept our friendship firm and strong and etc etc...dude i love you ok thats all lol ..ok you keep commenting on the photo..but im too busy writing this...ahh i had so much to say man..ok well im just very thankful to God for giving me a friend like you<3you're>

Yeah, I have some of the greatest friends!

2) On my way to school, like super early in the morning, Jared calls me after their seminary class to greet me and they all sorta-ish sang me happy birthday. (I was to tired to remember if they did or not. Jezreel had to remind me afterwards).

3) I get to school and nothing interesting happens, but my friend Alex did give me a toonie to buy me a chocolate bar since she couldn't get me the cupcake. LOL.

During break, I guess I used all the time to reply back to everybody's messages on Facebook. It took up pretty much my whole break. Children's Lit starts, so I'm sitting there bored...

4) But near the end of the class my phone starts buzzing. Thank goodness I was able to pick us up because my prof let us go just that second. It was Shanelle, one of my closest friends at church and also a new member. So here's out convo:

S: Guess who called me?
A: Who? Rapper?
S: No...Elder Anderson.
A: Yea, so? What'd he say?
S: He called me asking where you were! He said you're not answering your phone and he's been trying to get a hold of you!
A: OH! (Yeah, YorkU has really bad reception...)

5) So I try to get to the buses ASAP so I could finally get off campus and get some good reception. And low and behold, as we're driving off campus my phone rings and its Elder Anderson! We talked for a while, then he said that he had a choir that wanted to sing to me. I was so confuzzled for a sec. Then he counted to 3 and all I hear are all these people singing (or more like yelling) Happy Birthday to me. This made me smile soooooo much. And i wanted to laugh so hard..but i tried to keep it in. Yeah, i looked like such an idiot on the full-packed bus. Elder Anderson was on switches and he was with Elder Dewey(!) and his companion, and one of the YSA, Aaron, in Churchville. I realized that my uni was in their area and they could have totally visited me, JUST SAYIN'. Then i got to talk to Elder Dewey for a bit (who was a greenie when he served in my ward), and then talked again with Anderson. This totally made my night...I was smiling the whole way home. Seriously, i love my missionaries. And Elder Anderson is the absolute best!

6) Jezreel and I planned to meet up at the subway station so we could take the bus together to my place. So there she was, waiting for me...and she had one of those McCain IceCream pies in her hand. :') i was so touched. No one else bothered buying me a cake!!! I love my twin :D So i told her what happened so far, and she has to admit, she got kilig. She knows she did. Hahaha.

7) We get to my place and my mom has my favourite Congee Star menu waiting for me on the table like promised (: We were originally going to go to Jack Astors cuz i wanted CALIMARI so badly! But I had tons of stuff to do and she had to go to Parent-Teacher interviews, so we decided take-out was best. Jezreel and I enjoyed the food and talked more.

8) Then Rubab calls and she came to stop by for a quick visit. How great is that? Well she just lives across the street, but still. I never usually get people visiting me on my birthday.

9) Right when Rubab knocks on my door, my phone starts buzzing. I pick up and someone starts singing Happy Birthday to me and all I can do was smile. It was Elder Lucero!! (Elder Anderson's companion). It was American Thanksgiving, so i guess that's how he remembered since we were talking about it on Saturday haha. As much as I love my American friends, I'm sorry Lucero, I'm proud to be Canadian!!!

10) I got so many messages from people...i couldn't help but feel being loved. Especially when you get those extra long ones from people you know who extra love you...like Holly Deeks, Christine Laycock, Anthony Gomes, and Jed Layton. (: And these are my friends from far and wide. Christine's moved to Victoria, BC for law school and her message made me very happy. Anthony Gomes, i don't know where that boy is, but he is like my brother since we were in primary, and no matter how distant he is from the church, I'm glad he remembered me. And Jed, he's one of the RMs that had served in our ward...and he remembered my birthday! (':

11) OH YEAH. Christine texted me at midnight on my birthday! SHE HAS UNLIMITED TEXTING NOW!!! I was so happy! And she told me Simmin does too! This made me SOOOO happy. Those two are my closest friends from highschool and I go to a different university, so I never see them anymore. So i barely talk to them. AND NOW WE CAN TEXT. awesomeness.

ANYWAY, yup that's how my day went! I was definitely happy when I went to bed. And a good thing too, because the next day was going to be waaaaaaaay busy cuz of PREF. I only wished I got to see my sister more that day. She was out of the house before I woke up and had already left for the temple when I got home. BUT YEAH, I WAS TRES HAPPPY (:

Excerpt #6 - November 30, 2010



“Look at me. You’ll get over it ok? Trust me, you will. He doesn’t matter. What matters is that you try your best to fix that heart of yours. You can’t make anyone love you; all you can do is be someone who can be loved and the rest is up to the person to realize you’re worth it.”

Avalie played Mallorie’s advice over and over again in her mind. It’s been three years since Mallorie first said those words to her; when Ava decided to finally walk away from Vince. And she had used that advice all throughout the years. She thought that James would be that person. But once again she was wrong. And now Roo was here for her. He told her how much he loved her and how much she was worth. Roo was there for her, her best friend, the person she always confined in, the person who knew everything about her, and sometimes even knew her better than herself...but why was it so hard for her to allow herself to love him? She knew she did, but she was so scared to admit it.

*** meanwhile...***

Tanner turned toward Mallorie with a concerned look on his face. He struggled to get the words out, “you know...it’s really hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen.”

As much as Mallorie loved Avalie, she didn’t like to see Tanner so stressed out either. “If you know you can’t have her, then why don’t you just let her go? What’s the point?”

Tanner looked down, then back up at Mallorie, this time with a smile on his face. He let out a little chuckle, “because...it’s even harder to give up on something that you’ve always wanted”.

Touched, Mallorie’s solemn face brightened up in an instant. “If that’s how you really feel about Ava, then tell her.”

“I let her know all the time. I don’t think she realizes that as she’s been waiting for James, I’m been waiting just as patiently for her.”

Close to tears, Mallorie tried to comfort him, “just keep trying Tanner. Trust me, she does love you. It’s just hard for her to fully allow herself to”.

“But why?”

Mallorie heaved a sigh, “she’s just a little scared, I guess. She’s scared to get too close to anyone because everyone that promised to stay left”.

“Well she’s already broken half that statement of yours. She let me get so close. Maybe even too close. Do you know what that feels like? Every smile from her is torture because it’s a taste of something I can’t have.”

“I don’t know if this helps, but she truly does love you Tanner. She really, really does. I can tell. Ever since you guys became friends, she’s never been happier. With James gone, all she’s done was worry about him. But you have made a serious difference in her life.”

“You really think so?”

“I know so. And you know what confirms that? When you’re not around her there’s definitely something missing from her smile.”

Mallorie knew all Avalie had to do was allow herself to trust her own heart. Mallorie knew how Avalie felt deep down inside. “I’m not saying that I’m in love, I’m just saying that lately he’s all I’ve been thinking about”. Those were the words Avalie had said when Mallorie first approached her about Tanner. Maybe it was about time she helped her friend realize how she really felt.
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