Mission Outfits!

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

WOO!! This morning Ate Des helped me pack and put my outfits together. 
I was practically crying. The outfits turned out better than I expected. SUCCESS! 
(I just kept saying that I shouldn't look in the mirror. The photos will satisfy me for now, but if I judge it in a mirror, I know I'll start being picky. So, NO MIRROR!)

Bolero: $10 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre
Blazer: $10 at Urban Planet, Scarborough Town Centre
Tank: $3 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre
Skirt: Dress from YSA Clothes Swap; turned into a skirt, taken in by Grandma

Cardigan: $5 at Value Village, Lansdowne
Jacket: $8 at Value Village, Lansdowne
Skirt: Hand-me-down from Neva; taken in by Grandma

Top: $18 at Zellers; East York Town Centre
Skirt: $10 at Honest Eds; Bathurst
White Cardigan: $6 at Value Village; Lansdowne
Grey Cardigan: $7 at Value Village; Lansdowne
Tank: $3 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre

Cardigan: $7 at Value Village, Lansdowne
Tank: $3 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre
Skirt: $10 at Honest Eds, Bathurst

Blazer: Gift from Stan; $40 at Dynamite, Scarborough Town Centre
Dress: $50 at M for Mendocino, Scarborough Town Centre
(note: I originally bought this dress for a party, not for the mission. Don't spend this much on an outfit!)

Top: $4 at Value Village, Lansdowne
Blazer: $10 at Urban Planet, Scarborough Town Centre
Skirt: $5 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre; taken in by Grandma

Top: $4 at Value Village, Lansdowne
Skirt: A skort turned into a skirt, hand-me-down from Neva; taken in by Grandma

Bolero: $10 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre
Cardigan: $25 at The Bay, Eaton's
Tank: $10 at Ardenes, East York Town Centre
Skirt: $5 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre; taken in by Grandma

Top: $7 at Value Village; Lansdowne
Skirt: $5 at EasyFit; East York Town Centre; taken in by Grandma

Blazer: $10 at Urban Planet, Scarborough Town Centre
Bolero: $10 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre
Top: $10 at Suzy Shier (I think?) Outlet; Orfus Road
Skirt: $5 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre; taken in by Grandma

Top: $4 at Value Village, Lansdowne
Skirt: $10 at Honest Eds, Bathurst; taken in by Grandma

Top: Christmas gift from Tita Mindy & Tito Henry, H&M
Skirt: $5 at EasyFit, East York Town Centre; taken in by Grandma

Cardigan: $25 at The Bay, Eaton's 
Tank: Christmas gift from Tita Gina
Skirt: $7 from Value Village, Lansdowne

My Farewell Talk

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Here is le talk since people have been asking...(but let's face it, I would have posted it even if people didn't ask XD). 


Good morning brothers and sisters,
I asked for today’s topic months ago so I could start preparing early. But of course, I left it to the last minute because apparently that is when the inspiration starts to flow. So instead of retelling and explaining the Great Apostasy and the Restoration, I will give you the gist of the missionary’s first discussion in rap form!

A lot of people wonder about stuff like this
Like where's the true church and who God is
That's why we're here, to explain these things
To talk about the Gospel and the truth it brings
God's only begotten, His name is Jesus Christ
We talk of His mercy and atoning sacrifice
Amos chapter 8 talks about a great apostasy,
After Christ there was a famine which fulfilled his prophecy
Many years passed and time fell on 1820
Now doctrine show that in churches there were many
"Which church is true", asked the boy named Joseph Smith
"And how shall I know which sect to side with?"
So he headed to the woods to do as James direct
To ask the father and the son which one was correct
Jesus descended with important things to say
The boy was called to be a prophet in the latter-days
Joseph Smith acted without any hesitation
And with the Lord's help brought about the restoration
What happened here changed the world, let it change your life
The Book of Mormon, another Testament of Christ.

Today’s topic is “How can I liken the events of the Apostasy and the Restoration to my life”. As I was pondering this topic the only thing I could think of were trials! I was a little iffy at first because I am so repetitive with the topic of trials and overcoming them. Like, that is what my blog is based on; this is what I'm always talking about. As I started to ponder more about trials I thought of those who I thought are the biggest examples to me about enduring their trials.

For me, it has always been Joseph Smith and those first members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I am obsessed with The Work and the Glory, and over the past few years as I have been reading them, I’ve gained a greater appreciation and love for the early saints of the church. When you hear about the tragic events like the Massacre at Hauns Mills, or the extermination of the Mormons in Missouri (which is where I am going BTW!), or even their long, treacherous treks across the wilderness...It just makes me think, "suck it up, princess!!" Nothing I’ve been through can even compare to what the early saints had to go through. I don’t have to wake up scared every morning that I might get killed because of what I believe; I don’t have to leave everything behind to build a new life somewhere; and I don’t have to bury any loved ones in the middle of nowhere and continue on by myself. The amount of faith these saints had just blows my mind.

There’s a song by Jenny Phillips and I think the chorus describes the early saints perfectly: “Hold on to the yearning, and wherever you are on the journey, live like you believe, live like you know, its one sure way your faith will grow. Listen to your heart, searching your soul, and you’ll find the strength that you need: His light, the gift of His peace. When you live like you believe.

If there is one thing I’ve learned from Joseph Smith and the early saints it’s to be steadfast and immovable in the faith.

That used to be so easy for me. When it came to preparing to serve a mission, I had just finished my 3rd year at York and I’ve been applying to places for a job but with no real luck. I distinctly remember getting off the bus one day and as I’m walking to my apartment I had a brief chat with Heavenly Father about two things. I was like, “Heavenly Father, I am going to serve a mission but I don’t have a job. I’m not worried and I know you’ll provide me with one, but I am just saying that it needs to come soon because I want to start saving up.” And then I said, “Heavenly Father, also, if it’s not too much to ask, I’d really like to be asked on at least one date before I leave. Like please.” I may have also selfishly added that I didn't want to be the only sister missionary who has never been on a date before. So a few weeks pass and lo and behold I end up with a job which was way more than what I asked for. Everything that I’ve ever had concerns about with finding a summer job, were all diminished. I loved my boss, I love the people I worked with, it fit perfectly with my schedule, no evenings, no weekends, and enough flexibility for me to still be able to carry out the projects I had planned for that summer. As if that wasn’t big enough of a blessing already, a couple days later, I kid you not, Stan started talking to me. And we all know that that has lead to more than just one date. So I never really had trouble knowing that Heavenly Father listens to my prayers whether it be on my knees or through my heart, no matter how serious or ridiculous my requests are. He may not answer them all right away, but I know He’s there listening.

And so when the time for processing my papers and receiving my call came, more and more people kept warning me to be careful because Satan is going to try his best to stop you from serving a mission. He doesn’t want you going out there to do the Lord’s work. Me being me I just nodded and my head and agreed that I knew that it was going to happen. But you don’t really know until you’ve experience it yourself...which ended up happening. The Adversary had taken my weaknesses, my pet peeves, and just every little thing that would bug me and magnify them by 100. That’s what Satan does: he takes the bad things in you and uses them against you. So I had feelings of depression, and contention, and hatred growing in my heart. So it’s one thing to have the adversary take the bad things in you and make them bigger, but the one thing I didn’t think Satan could do was to take one of my strengths and have me question that I am a daughter of God. And that is one of the things I have the most surety in: I know that I am a daughter of a loving Heavenly Father who listens and answers my prayers, I know that I have Divine potential, and that I am on earth with a divine purpose. So to have him make me question my testimony of that absolutely scared me. So I can actually say that I was at my lowest and that I felt like Satan had me in the palm of his hand so ready to crush me. But even though I know now that Satan does have power, I have a testimony and know that God’s power is stronger.

When Joseph Smith was in the sacred grove, the power of the adversary had strongly overcome him. He records, “But, exerting all my powers to call upon God to deliver me out of the power of this enemy which had seized upon me, and at the very moment when I was ready to sink into despair and abandon myself to destruction—not to an imaginary ruin, but to the power of some actual being from the unseen world, who had such marvelous power as I had never before felt in any being—just at this moment of great alarm, I saw a pillar of light exactly over my head, above the brightness of the sun, which descended gradually until it fell upon me.”

I know God’s power is stronger. And like Joseph Smith I know that I can overcome the adversary through prayer. God may not appear to me like he did to Joseph, but I know He is there listening. I have never before gotten on my knees to pray and cry and beg my Heavenly Father to take pain away or to just show me a sign that He was there and still cared. And over the past 5 months I did more than I ever had in my entire life. And even though things were still chaotic, I knew that God was there because of the slightest glow of comfort and peace that came to my heart. I felt the comfort to know that things would be ok.

And that comfort, that "light and gift of His peace” that Jenny Phillips sings about...that’s the comfort and peace we can only receive through the Atonement of Jesus Christ.

There is a song by Julie Yardley and the lyrics say:

Just have the courage to take one step, someone's going to be there to help with the rest. To start is the hardest, but it's something only you can do. Have faith to pray for the strength to finally see this through. There's one who knows you perfectly. He can take the hurt away. The healing starts within- just let Him in. And let it begin.”

I don’t think Joseph Smith or any of the Saints could endure the trials and tribulations they had to go through without the knowledge that there is a Saviour; that he died for our sins, he suffered all pains and afflictions so that He can succor us when we feel like we are at our lowest. And I have felt that succoring. We don’t need to be sinning for us to access the Atonement of Jesus Christ. We just need to allow it to help make that change in our life.

And that is why Joseph Smith and the early saints went through what they went through. It would have been so easy for them to say “hey, I don’t want to do this anymore” and stop trying and believing. But they didn’t. And they didn’t because the Gospel needed to go forth. Joseph Smith said, 

The Standard of Truth has been erected. No unhallowed hand can stop the work from progressing. Persecutions may rage, mobs may combine, armies may assemble, calumny may defame. But the truth of God will go forth boldly, nobly, and dependent till it has penetrated every continent, visited every clime, swept every country, and sounded in every ear, until the purposes of God shall be accomplished and the Great Jehovah will say, ‘The work is done.' 

Can you imagine? The restoration of the gospel of Jesus Christ started with Joseph Smith and such a small body of Saints. They held their first church meetings in a small log cabin. But look at how far and wide the gospel has spread! We have over 14 million members and counting! And I am privileged to be one of the 20,000 called missionaries to join the 65,000 already currently serving to help spread the gospel. I may not be sacrificing as much as the early saints did, but putting my life on pause and leaving school, my loved ones, and everything else behind is not an easy thing to do. But like the early saints, I’m doing it because I know the Gospel is true! I want to be able to touch people’s lives and bear testimony that I know of the blessings that come when you center your life around Christ and His teachings. It has blessed my life immensely and I just want others to have it as well. The best way to describe a missionary is someone who leaves their family for a short period of time so that others may be with their families for eternity.

The gospel is true brothers and sisters! The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is here to help us progress in the gospel so we can be reunited once again with our Father in Heaven and be with our families forever. And what a glorious, happy day that will be. The Lord loves each and every single one of you, whether you know it or not. He does.

And I leave these things with you in the name of Jesus Christ, amen. 

I love this

Saturday, April 27, 2013

"Sometimes God calms the storm...sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms the child".

How beautiful it is to know there is a Father in Heaven who loves us 
& through our Saviour, Jesus Christ, we can be comforted and feel peace.

Enough said.

I love to see the temple, I went inside today :)

Saturday, April 13, 2013

I had the opportunity to go through the Toronto Ontario Temple to take out my endowments.
What an amazing experience it was.

I am so grateful to have a temple that is less than an hour drive away.
I am grateful for the temple and the saving ordinances we are able to do in them.
I am grateful that families can be sealed together for eternity.
And I am grateful for the wonderful people I have in my life.

Life is grand :)

People in attendance: Mom, Dad, Grandma, Stan the Man, Momma Fisher, Papi & Mami Bernal, Papa & Mama Burns, Melissa, Emily, Jared, Caroel, Pres & Sis Hynynen, Ate Des, Tita Imee & Tito Jerry, Tita Angie & Tito Madzy, Tita Jette & Uncle Don, Bishop & Sis Rae, Amy, and Sis. Fuller.

And a big thanks to my ladies who came to support even though they couldn't go in: Laura, Arielle, Sara, Holly, and Autumn. Love you girls!

Papi & Mami Bernal

Papi Bernal, Laura, and Stan the Man

Momma Fisher & Stan the Man :)

I am so grateful that he is so supportive and that we could be in the temple together :) I love him mucho

Tita Angie & Tito Madzy. Preee much my 2nd parents.

Jared!! He just got back from his mission!

Amy!! I love this girl to bits and pieces. She wasn't able to make it to my session, but she caught me in the change room as I was about to leave. Love her.


Le sibs:)

Standing in Holy Places

Friday, April 12, 2013

I just love this video so much!!
I get all tingly and happy inside. The temple is such a special place.
I am so excited for tomorrow ;D

A Smile a Day | Accidental Texts

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Bahaha. Ok so I have this habit of texting Stan pickup lines...

Boy: I'm a superhero. What's my name? 
Girl: Superman? Ironman? 
Boy: Yourman."

My boyfriend is supposed to reply laughing right?


My friend Vi replies instead.
Vi: Haha XD That's cute and lame at the same time XD 
Vi: At least you didn't start professing your undying love for me.

Bahahaha. I was dying. It was a good laugh for the night :)

A Mighty Band of Youth

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

I am blessed to be part of this marvelous work! I can't wait to go to the MTC!


Sunday, April 7, 2013

"What e'er thou art, act well thy part" ♥ 

General Conference was nothing short of absolutely amazing. As usual. Do I love getting answers to my questions, prayers, and heart's yearnings? CHYEAH, I DO :) I love how it is through the prophet and apostles's counsel that I remember what my heart truly desires, and reminds we what I need to do to work towards those goals and to receive those blessings. I love being in such a wonderful mood! 

"I believe in Christ like I believe in the sun. Not because I can see it, but by it I can see everything else" - C.S. Lewis. The Gospel of Jesus Christ is true! I am so blessed to know that!! It is the only reason I know that I have a loving Father in Heaven who has a plan for all His children; that Jesus Christ is my older brother and died so that I might have a chance to live with Him again; that the Holy Ghost can be and IS my best and closest friend--in ways that only you will be able to understand if you seek for it yourself; and that families can be together for eternity. God's plan is perfect and is the only thing that makes this life worth living. I am SO grateful that being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints allows and helps me fulfill the things I need to do to follow that plan!

Other things worth mentioning just because they fill me with gratitude and happiness:
  • Derek made these amazing dessert inventions that I have fell in love with. Chocolate-filled cookies with ice cream in between, whipped cream on top, and blueberries to top of that. YUM.
  • Jared taught me a jazz scale and delightfully entertained Amber and I with his wonderful talent I have always wish I had. 
  • Seeing Amy's face and getting her hugs always brightens up my day. She is the best. 
  • Julio had me in tears with his testimony. I LOVE the whole Ospina family and am grateful to have them as my friends. 
  • I got to sit in an interesting discussion between the Elders and my high school friend Ruba! I was so happy to see her again.
  • Stan the Man sat in the discussion as well. He is an awesome missionary and is an amazing example to me:) I love my boyfriend mucho. I hope I can learn to teach like he does. 
  • One of our fave missionaries from way back in the day, Jason Parker, is coming to visit Toronto the week before I leave! Woo-hoo! It's about time!


God is good. Why not be happy? What a great weekend ♥ The Church is true!


Thursday, April 4, 2013

Ugh, I love this so much!! 
The mission and family part gets to me.

"Living light, breathing hope, every precious gift from the Master's plan
When you feel and you know and you follow and you take His path"

Liebster Award

Monday, April 1, 2013

I had absolutely no clue what a Liebster Award was until Life and Times of a Student, nominated me for one. Thank you!

The award is given to bloggers with less than 200 followers who deserve acknowledgement  and encouragement to continue blogging.

The rules are as follows:
1. List 11 facts about yourself.
2. Answer the 11 questions given to you.
3. Create 11 new questions for the bloggers you nominate. 
4. Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog. 
5. Choose 11 bloggers with 200 or less followers to nominate.
6. Go to each bloggers page and let them know about the award.

11 Facts About Me:
1. I am an English major, but don't write like one.

2. My younger sister, Laura, is my best friend and I treat her like my own child.

3. I have an obsession with costumes and dressing up.

4. My biggest fear is losing people from my life.

5. I have a love for lists. 

6. I wish I knew how to belly dance.

7. A quarter of my wardrobe are clothes from 5-10 years ago.

8. I don't know much of anything since I've been stuck in the same bubble since forever.

9. I can't eat in front of people. I find it rude if I eat while they are talking (this is why my boyfriend always sits beside me instead ;))

10. I talk in my sleep. And I snore...sometimes. 

11. I have a habit of bringing up "poop" into my conversations. And I enjoy talking about it too with no shame.

11 Questions From Life and Times of a Student:
1. What's your favourite meal?
Steamy home-cooked dinners. Hands down.

2. Post the favourite photo you've ever taken, and why is it your favourite?
This is a hard one! I am a photographer and love most of my photos for one reason or another. But if I had to pick one, it would be this photo I took in the 11th grade. It is my favourite because it includes everything I stand for: a) My Young Women's Medallion - to remind me that the temple is my goal; b) My Young Women's Value Bracelet - to remind me of the values I have learned to develop in my life; c) One of my favourite scriptures (Mosiah 18: 8-10) which helps remind me what I need to do as a disciple of Christ.

3. What's your favourite cocktail?
I don't drink. 

4. What is your favourite book?
Another hard one for there are tons! But currently it is The Work and the Glory series by Gerald N. Lund.

5. If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would you love to go?
The Philippines. I haven't seen my family there in 12 years.

6. What's your essential wardrobe item?
Earrings! I feel naked without them. 

7. What song would/did you have at your wedding?
Hmm. I would have a mash-up between A Thousand Years by Christina Perri and Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz. I have my reasons :)

8. Who's your favourite comedian?
Michael Ziegfeld! 

9. What do you love most about where you live?
It is so multicultural!!! Love, love, love that. I learn so much about other cultures without even having to step out of my own high school. 

10. How did you choose your blog name?
I like juxtapositioning :) (is there a formal literally term for putting two opposing words together? Probably.  This is an example of fact #1 haha). My blog title pretty much describes my life: sometimes it can be a complete chaos, but every little thing that contributes to that chaos is just so dear and lovely to me. It is supposed to help other bloggers realize that there life is the same--sometimes you just got to look out for the lovely a midst the chaos ;)

11. Would you prefer to have a dog or cat as your household pet?
DOG!...even though I am allergic to them. But I love them nonetheless. Cats can be so gross.

11 Questions From My Lovely Chaos:
1. What is your favourite outfit in your closet?
2. What would you do with $10,000?
3. If you could learn to play one instrument, what would it be?
4. You were asked to sing the anthem at a sports event. Which sport and which teams would be playing?
5. If there was one skill you wish you could, what would it be?
6. Who is your favouite person on earth?
7. Which blog to you go to for inspiration?
8. If I invited you to a costume party, what would you come as?
9. Would you rather go backpacking in Europe or go roadtripping across Canada?
10. What is one goal you want to achieve within the next 5 years?
11. If you could meet anybody, living or dead, who would it be?

Who I Have Nominated: 

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