I didn't watch as He healed, but His love has changed my life.

Monday, September 29, 2014

This week has been amazing! 

Debbie was baptized on Saturday! Oh my goodness, it was the most amazing and most Spirit-filled baptism I've ever been to. Debbie was glowing. My heart couldn't even contain the happiness I felt for her. She was brimming with so much gratitude and love and joy. We were in the bathroom with her, waiting for her to change back into her dress, and we just kept singing, "oh happy day!!". She is so great. When we went back to the Relief Society room, it was our turn to do our surprise musical number. We have practiced the song countless amount of times over the past two weeks (especially because I wanted to have my alto solid), so you'd think that I'd be almost numb to what the lyrics said. APPARENTLY NOT. When it got to my solo, my voice started shaking, and half-way through it, I was choking up and crying. 

As I sung those words, I couldn't hold back the tears. The words hit so true to me.  As I looked at Debbie I saw someone who has let the love of Christ change her life. With all the things that Debbie had to give up to be where she's at now was only possible by recognizing His presence every single day; living grace by grace. I know the Savior's love has changed my life. And I know He did what He for me. I know it was for Debbie. I know it was for all of you. When it got to the last line, I couldn't help but smile. Debbie was beaming back at me. I knew deep down inside, both our hearts were yearning for the day when He calls us by name.

I've been doing a ton of reflecting the past couple of transfers, and no doubt with my last transfer coming up, more reflection is going to happen. A lesson we had this week was part of what triggered the tears.

On Thursday, we had a lesson with one of our newer investigators. The past couple of lessons with her have been a little difficult. She's always doing chores when we come over, and her kids are always getting into things, so it's just been really hard to just sit her down and teach her. Or so I thought. We watched a Mormon Message with her, and then I started asking her some questions about what she wanted for her family. There was a lot of silence in between her answers. She then got up to do something. I couldn't help but feel like I was failing so hard. But when she sat back down she started talking about wanting to be a good influence on her kids because one person makes the difference. Then she goes on to say, "you guys don't even know how much your visits have helped me. The last time you really got me thinking about things. We used to say recited prayers every night, but now we pray together from our hearts. I ask them questions to get them thinking about what they want to tell Heavenly Father". 

I was sitting there in shock. The last lesson we had with her was soooo awkward. I was on exchanges and I felt somewhat embarrassed that the lesson was so far from ideal, especially when I was trying to set an example for this other sister. We had watched "Earthly Father, Heavenly Father" and talked about the love of a parent in comparison to Heavenly Father's love for us. At the end of the lesson, I had helped her 3 yr old say a prayer. I felt like nothing much had happened in that lesson. And to hear her say what she was saying just left me so flabbergasted. The way the Spirit works never ceases to amaze me.

She then starts crying and telling us all the things that have been going on in her life; mostly things having to do with anxiety and how its taken a toll on her health and how she lives. As we sat down and listened to her, my heart couldn't help but weep for her. My companion and I have both had to deal with our share of anxiety, and I still at times still have to deal with mine. The three of us had different circumstances and different results of anxiety, but it was something that effected our life nonetheless. As we talked about the Gospel and about the healing power of the Atonement, I felt at peace. For once I realized that maybe, just maybe, what I feel like is such a huge burden in my life needs to be in my life so I understand people like our particular investigator here. And maybe, just maybe, I can help them understand the love their Savior has for them because of His Atonement. 

Although I've felt like its such a huge burden, I've come to learn--and have no doubt in my mind-- that its those loads that help me more fully rely on the Savior. I've complained multiple times, "ughhhh why does this have to happen to me". But what those things really do is bring me closer to my Savior. That makes the load worth it. That's what makes "sticking in there" matter to me. 

So yeah, I didn't walk with the Savior. 
But I know He is right behind all that I do, every single day.

And I didn't watch as He healed.
But I know that He has healed me spiritually, physically, and mentally multiple times. And I know that His love changes everything I do, for, and with my life. He knows better than I.

And I haven't seen the cross either.
But I know without a shadow of doubt that He did what He did because He loves me.

And when He bids me come, when He calls my name to meet Him, I will worship at His feet.

I bare you my testimony that He lives. He loves each and every one of you with love that can not be comprehended. I leave that with you in His sacred name, even Jesus Christ, amen.

Hope you all have a splendid week!!!
See you in 7 ;D
MUCHO LOVIN' (with more love that I know what to do with)
Sister Limas

EEEEEEEK. I screamed so loud when I got this in the mail!

Exchanges with Sister Hayden :)

With the Webster Groves Sisters.
Oh heyyyyy it's my "niece", my "grand-baby", and my comp all in one photo :D

Good News and Tender Moments

Monday, September 22, 2014

I'm just going to list 'em down for ya :)

1. PATRICK BADGER GOT BAPTIZED ON SATURDAY!!!!! Aw yaaaah. I'm not going to go into detail about Patrick because you've received a whole essay and a half about him from me already haha. But OH MY HEART. Sis Tonnies emailed me and told me he was just so happy. AND BONUS: His mom is apparently a less active member. OH SHOOT. The Lord definitely sends us to places for a reason!

2. President and Sister Morgan invited us over for dinner in the mission home before the Women's Broadcast. OH YAY! I was just telling Sister Morgan during interviews that I feel like I don't get to be around her as much I wish I was. Hooray for mission mommas. 

3. Sis Morgan put us in charge of the musical number for Mission Conference. "COME UNTO CHRIST", fo'shooooooz.

4. Mission Conference isn't going to be split up Missouri vs Illinois this year!!!! BOO YAH. I get to see ALL the missionaries in my last transfer and say my goodbyes? THANK YOOUUS!

5. Debbie Gray is getting baptized this Saturday! Her and her family have just become so dear to my heart! Every time I come over, I know I'm home. Her kids are pretty much my siblings. It's great. 

6. From the Sisters we are over alone, we have SIX BAPTISMS all together this Saturday. THATS WHAT YOU CALL HASTENING OF THE WORK!!!!! We are so far behind our goal of 521 baptisms for this year, and we desperately need 1 baptism per transfer per area. OUR SISTERS JUST SCORED THAT. Oh they are so amazing :')

7. The Oakville ward doesn't have any sisters, so they've asked Sister Webster and I to teach the missionary discussions to their young women on an individual basis. YEEEEUS, I love working with the youth. I remember how fragile I was and how much the Young Women's program and working with the missionaries had a huge influence on my life. So I'm suuuuper excited to be working with these young women on developing their testimony and conversion. 

8. Stake Conference was AMAZING. Elder George F. Rhodes Jr of the 70 pretty much directed both session of conference. There were no programs or anything. He would just direct it the way the Spirit told him to. It was cray-cray. Sister Webster got called up to bare her testimony. Oh, my companion is so beautiful! She gave such a beautifully powerful testimony of the Book of Mormon. And Elder Rhodes is THE BOMB when it comes to teaching. Holy moly, was I edified. I'll add a few notes at the end.

9. Filipiiiiinos! Sister Vilignia introduced me to a Filipino in her ward. And in an instant we were like best friends. BAHAHA. Oh Filipinos. Her name is Leahona and she is from Devao and moved to Missouri 3 yrs ago. The sisters were a little surprised how quick we became friends, but Leahona was like, "no you gotta look our for Filipinos. We just need to gather". Haha so true. AND, I got to see the step-mom of one of the members' in my 2nd area. I was like "ah, how do I know her?" (she's Filipino too), and she reminded me haha. She was with another Filipino named Sonja who is ALSO GETTING BAPTIZED ON SATURDAY. Oh my lanta. ITS SO AWESOME.

10. Our upcoming week is BOOKED. Just the way I like it! :) I hate seeing my planner empty. And it's a huuuuuge test of faith on my part for me to plan at night knowing that the day I'm planning for has nothing written. That has been my struggle this whole transfer. I had exchanges with Sister Adamson coming up, and the day we were supposed to be together had absolutely nothing planned. But the Spirit helped me plan the night before, my page looked crazy by the end of the night, aaaaand we found one new investigator and had 3 lessons taught that day. WOOT! Being absolutely booked is awesome and is the way I like things rolling...but when you gotta call people to switch appointments around in the span of 7 minutes brings the anxiety out like a mad dog. I've had to do that a few times this week, including this morning. But I'm all good now :) The Lord makes things work out!

Now for my Tender Moments:
1. We had interviews with President this week. I've been so excited for interviews and kept saying, "I'm so ready to talk to Dad right now!". I get in the room and President Morgan starts updating me on Toronto, of course :p Apparently the Mission President in Toronto is one of his really good friends. Then he asks me about Laura's wedding and my plans for when I get home. I then say, "I thought I had my plans straight until I got that letter in the mail from you today about BYU!" He stares at me blankly for a few seconds and says, "oh that? I just have to send that to all the missionaries." After discussing school a little bit, he then continues on to say, "but if for some crazy reason you end up at BYU, you're going to have to come see Sister Morgan and I". I then proceed to say, "are you kidding me? When you guys go home, I am flying out to be there to see you." The room goes silent. President Morgan has two gestures that he's very well known for, and we missionaries copy him all the time. The first is when he cocks his head to the side as he's trying to comprehend what has just come out of your mouth, takes his glasses off, and then puts his hand under his chin, staring at you, trying to figure you out (that's happened to me once, ever. It was pretty funny because I almost took back what I said haha). The second is when he gets emotional and he's tapping the table/pulpit slowly but firmly with his finger as he's trying to muster out the words he's going to say. At that moment, he did the latter. He's choking back tears, saying "Sister Limas..." in a dont-start-with-me tone of voice. He gets up and comes over to me to shake my hand and I'm thinking, "are you kidding me? My interview is not over already!" I stand up to shake his hand and say, "no, but really President. I've loved having you and Sister Morgan as my President." I'm starting to tear up as I say this and now he's close to bawling. He grabs my shoulders and says, "we've loved it too". Then he flips me around and starts pushing me out the door to get himself to stop crying. OH MY HEART. I just love President and Sister Morgan.

2. We went over the baptismal interview questions with Debbie, and the moment she read the last one, I started tearing up. The last question says, "When you are baptized, you covenant with God that you are willing to take upon yourself the name of Christ and keep His commandments throughout your life. Are you ready to make this covenant and strive to be faithful to it?" As she read that, I couldn't help but feel the Spirit because I knew she was ready. And it's never dawned on my so hard before of how precious and sacred the covenants she is making are. Especially because of all that she's given up to make them. Oh, so beautiful!

3. Have you sung verses 3,4,5 and 7 of How Firm a Foundation before? We stood as we sung that at Stake Conference and I just got so super emotional! The lyrics, all together say: "Fear not, i am with thee; oh, be not dismayed, For I am thy God and will still give thee aid. I'll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand, upheld by my righteous, upheld by my righteous, upheld by my righteous, omnipotent hand. When through the deep waters I call thee to go, the river of sorrow shall not thee o'erflow, for I will be with thee, thy troubles to bless, And sanctify to thee, and sanctify to thee, and sanctify to thee they deepest distress. When through fiery trials thy pathway shall lie, my grace, all sufficient, shall by thy supply. The flame shall not hurt thee; I only design thy dross to consume, thy dross to consume, thy dross to consume and thy gold to refine. The soul that on Jesus hath leaned for repose I will not, I cannot, desert to his foes; that soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake, I'll never, no never, I'll never, no never, I'll never, no never, no never forsake!" Elder Rhodes pointed out that this is a special hymn like no other because it is written like the Lord speaking to us. I then realized why I was crying in the first place! The lyrics I've written above pretty much describe my whole mission experience thus far. Gah, that song is so empowering! Heavenly Father's love is so empowering!

4. We taught Debbie about the prophet, and the priesthood & auxilaries on Sunday afternoon. We were showing her some gospel art, and as I was staring at the picture of John the Baptist giving Joseph Smith the Aaronic Priesthood (which is a photo I don't see too often), I started getting emotional. The Spirit just filled my heart and confirmed to me the truth of the restoration of the Gospel and the Priesthood. If the restoration of that Priesthood didn't happen, there would be no reason why I was sitting in Debbie's living room as a missionary, teaching her about the blessings of the Gospel. She wouldn't even be doing what she was to make covenants with Heavenly Father. Just like Elder Ballard shared in, Our Search for Happiness, sometimes it's in the quiet, still moments that the Spirit manifests truth where testimony turns into sure knowledge.

Sorry, that wasn't supposed to be as long as it was. I was hoping numbering them off would make it short and sweet, but as I was typing it, more and more good events from this week just kept popping into my head. To finish, I just want to quote Elder Rhodes (its a conglomeration of my notes from the last thing he said. my notes dont do it any justice):

"We are to choose eternal life. It's only by and through the Atonement of Jesus Christ. 'And this is life eternal that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent'. Eternal Life is about who you are. Are we developing the virtues like Christ did? It comes down to the decision to seek to have our heart like the Savior's heart. When this happens, hearts will be centered in creating an eternal family. It's only through faith in Jesus Christ. As we honour eternal families, the adversary has no power to stop us from exaltation. We must change our heart to some degree, and never be the same again."

Words to definitely ponder :)

Aaaaand Julian Sookhoo suggested I watch this video and said, "I am amazed at how far the power of a smile can go". Powerful words right there. I watched the video and I'm like crying. So basically, y'all just need to watch this too. I hope this can be a pick-me-up for your week :)

Have a wonderful week!
See you in 8 ;D
Sister Limas

Exchanges with Sister Adamson

With the Sandy Creek Sisters

My coooomp. Before Stake Conference.

"Love is your strength"

Monday, September 15, 2014

This week has been cray-cray! I don't even really know what to tell all of you haha. Life as an STL is freaking busy. I barely have time to write in my journal at night. I think that's the only part that's stressing me out now haha because it's the only way I'm able to release and relax and remember anything anymore because so much goes on. So the fact that I don't have time to do it drives me nuts!

Monday night was really hard. I was up in the early hours of Tuesday morning, cringing. Way back when, my district leader, Elder Williams, had told me that when that happens I just need to get up and read my scriptures. Which I did. Receiving revelation and chastisement at 3:43am is like no other, I'll tell you that :p

Tuesday I got to go to the YSA area (covers two zones/stakes!) and be on exchanges with Sister Sperry. I just had a HOOT with her! We have a lot of the same interests, so we got pretty excited about that. They had a lot of appointments set up, so it was pretty much running from one to another, which was FAB. She is just the cutest ball of fun! At one point she was like:

Sperry: Yeah, Sister Bailey and I made it a goal to take pictures with all the cakes.
Me: you go into bakeries a lot?
Sperry: You look lost. Do you know what I'm talking about?
Me: No...
Sperry: It's the cakes for St Louis' 250th bday!

A St Louis 250 Cake!!! :D 

HA HA HA! So there are like 250 cakes all around the St Louis area and people have fun taking pictures with them and collecting them all! We were driving around a sketchy neighborhood and found one. I got so stinking excited! Oh, here's another convo:

Exchanges with Sister Sperry :)
Sperry: Pray for the car. I'm pretty sure this is a no-sisters area. It's really dangerous.
Me: Really? This reminds me of home.

That was super funny. It was such a tender mercy to be in the city!!!! I get a little too excited seeing the city lights and the freeways and seeing public transportation and seeing shops upon shops with no end. 

And because I was with a YSA Sister, we got to see...YES, YSA!!!!!! WOOOOOO!!!!! Oh my lanta, I didn't realize how much I missed being around the YSA. We had a less active lesson with girl named Kellie Little, and had Julie Humphries, one of the active YSA, to come with us. Oh man, I was dying. Julie is a riot. She served a mission in Chile, graduated from BYU, and was doing graduate stuff here in St Louis. Kellie is 20, lives on her own, and has a preeeeetty sweet lookin' apartment for a student. Quote of the night: "I came out of the womb wreaking in awkwardness". Oh yes. I love YSA. Being with the two of them calmed my nerves a whole lot. I realized that I'm young and still have tons of time to accomplish the things I want to, even before I hit 25. Oh the tender mercies of being with successful YSA.

With the YSA Sisters: Sister Sperry & Sister Bailey!
Wednesday was just weird. We exchanged back and had less than 24 hrs to work our area before we had to go on exchanges again. Exchanges drain the energy out of me. They always have. And now I do 5 of them in a transfer instead of only 1 haha. I'm not complaining though. My point was, Sister Webster and I were so out of it. I couldn't think straight and it was really frustrating me that I still didn't know what this area needed. We requested blessings from our district leader that night. 

It was definitely a "trust-your-Priesthood-holder" type moment, yet again. I love my district leader and everything, but he gets super frustrated easily and is always so mad about how difficult our areas are. At first I was going to get Bro. McDermott to give me the blessing (one of the members in the ward here that have honestly become one of my best friends. HAHA. He's 42 and has ADD and is the funniest person I have ever met). Anyway, I let my district leader do it. And I'm glad I did and just trusted him because it was one of the most comforting blessings I've gotten. My favourite part about blessings is when the Priesthood holder takes pauses. Why? Because that's when I know they are really seeking for what the Lord wants them to say. Two comforting lines that got to me:

1. "Love is your strength. Teach and council the sisters how to love."

2. "The council you give is Heavenly Father's will and is what they need to hear."

That just brought a lot of comfort because it told me that Heavenly Father trusted what I had been counseling and advising the Sisters on, and that He already trusts what I will counsel and advise them on. As for love...that's something a lot of people tell me, but I never take much thought about it because all I can think is, "you don't really know what my heart is like". But to hear from Heavenly Father that love is my strength and that I can teach others how to love was definitely a startler. Especially the teaching others part. 

So I love Priesthood blessings because the next morning I was just so excited for the day! I went on exchanges with Sister Oberfield. That Sister is a powerhouse. She is so close to the Spirit and it is manifest by how confident she is when she speaks and teaches. Loooove it! And we had such a deep comp study. Man, I love deep comp studies. They are the best! She is a huge example of someone who puts her whole heart into all that she does. 

Lesson learned this week: I can do this and I've been prepared. 
Counseling and advising the Sisters is most definitely what I was most nervous about. But as I've been going on exchanges and getting to know the Sisters, it really isn't as difficult as I thought it would be. The Spirit can't draw from an empty well. As I've had to counsel, advise, train, correct (gah that's the scariest one for me!), and uplift these Sisters, I realized that the Spirit was only able to help with it all because my well isn't empty. Heavenly Father has let me experience what I had on mission so that I would be prepared to help these Sisters out. I used to think that I'd have to come up with some genius thing to tell these Sisters about how to fix their concerns and issues. But I don't. The Spirit just helps me remember what has helped me through my mission, and all I have to do is open my mouth and share it. 

I know what it's like to be on the receiving end. I know what qualities I loved in my past STLs. I also know which qualities I wish they did have.  I've been lucky enough to have Sisters that were actually excited to have me be their STL (oh whew). That's a blessing in itself because most Sisters don't like their STLs or exchanges. I know because I've been one of those Sisters. But as my love for the work has grown, my feelings towards it has softened.  And I'm grateful I have the opportunity to be someone my Sisters feel comfortable turning to and opening up to, and also feel like any correction that is given is out of complete and utter love for them and their well-being. 

I'm closing with lyrics!

I stand in holy places, protected from the storm.
Anchor safe in harbour, though my sails are ripped and worn.
I stand in holy places, and I will not move
Until the Lord has come and says, "well done",
He is the hope I hold on to.

Standing in holy places means to lift where you stand. Love where you stand.

See you in 9!
MUCHO LOVE (with more love than I know what to do with)
Sister Limas :)

Official NOOB Status

Monday, September 8, 2014

Soooooo I didn't realize till yesterday that I hit 16 months today. HOLY FLIP.
But can someone please explain to my WHY I still feel like a NOOB? Haha.

This area is quite the interesting one. I have come to realize how SPOILED I have been all through out my mission. I get here and I'm like "oh....missionaries have to deal with this?" Bahaha. Like climbing up two flights of stairs with heavy suitcases just to get to my apartment. Or having to do my laundry at a public laundry mat. What the cheese? Missionaries actually have to sacrifice more money than just soap and bleach? And I have to show I.D to use this dang computer? I DONT HAVE A DRIVER'S LICENSE. Oh soooo fail. It just makes me laugh. A lot. And it makes my companion laugh a lot too to see my expressions about all of it. Anyway, I'm just trying to soak it all in. "At least I get the full missionary experience" is what I tell my companion :p

I went on my first exchange this week.
My first exchange as a Sister Training Leader!
With Sister Richardson :)
And let me tellllllllll you, I stressed out like mad. I kept pacing back and forth around the apartment trying to make sure everything was good. And I was shuffling through and reviewing all my notes from MLC to remind myself of what we had even presented to everyone on how we were going to help our Sisters get 1 baptism per transfer. I want to be a good leader and make dang sure I'm going to do what I said I was going to do. ANYWAY, the exchange was UBER FUN. Sister Webster kept telling me that it was going to be fine and it was my chance to be in the area without her so I could put my white-washing skills into play. I knew she was right. I just have the tendency to get worked up with anticipation. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. Sister Ash was right. I do worry too much about things I know are going to be perfectly fine haha. Sister Richardson, one of the Sisters in Crystal City, and I had a blast. We had some good girl talk and asking her about the details in her area were easy-peasy. I don't know why I thought it was going to be so difficult. I just put all my journalism skills into play. I had so much fun with it, it was awesome! I was slightly freaking out about the training I was going to give her at the end of the exchange. Why? I don't even know. It was even my idea that we should give our Sisters a little pow wow training, and now the time comes and I started worrying about it. SUCH A NOOOOOB. I haven't given a training in forever! BUT it went great.

I don't know why I'm like this. I do fine doing missionary work in my own area and just owning it, but then I get called to a certain assignment, like training or being an STL, and all of a sudden I feel like I don't know how to do work anymore. That's why I felt the way I did about exchanges. Since I got to Fenton, I've been studying the scriptures in the White Handbook and the letter from President about the new assignment so I know and understand what my responsibilities are. Like I said in my last email, counseling the other Sisters made me freeze over the phone. But as I had my experience with Sister Richardson, I realized it honestly was like dealing with an investigator--all I had to do was follow the Spirit. The only difference was that we were both missionaries, we have similar experiences, and she was trusting my experience to help me out with hers. Seriously, THANK GOODNESS FOR THE SPIRIT. As a leader, I can't give her advice or tell her to do something if I hadn't done it/experienced it already. And even though sometimes I feel like I'm inadequate to do things, I know the Lord qualifies:) The Spirit has brought to remembrance the things that I have been able to learn from my other areas so that I could turn to a page in Preach My Gospel to train my Sister on.

This is a random insert, but I just glanced at my companion's computer screen and she's stalking my profile. ROFL.

Anyway! So I really do feel like a noob when it comes to all of this stuff. But I am just so super grateful that the Spirit guides. WHEWWWWWWW.

Our whole district is struggling with finding new investigators though. Pray for us, please! I've been getting a little antsy because I just want to implement the game plan that has worked for me in other areas because I know I'm good at finding....but I'm not the type of person to just come waltzing in and saying "hey, we're going to do this now". But Sister Webster has been so great at trying to encourage me to share those strengths. I'm still leery about it, but I'm trying.

Debbie Gray, our super solid golden investigator, is FANTASTIC. I just love her sooo much. She is making so many changes! Not because we've told her to (because we really haven't), but because she WANTS to align her life with Christ's. AH. THIS IS WHY I LOVE MISSIONARY WORK SO MUCH. She is so great. I have no words to even describe how beautiful everything is. She had asked her son Julian (who is a convert that went less active but is becoming active again) if he felt anything at his baptism. He shared this conversation during testimony meeting on Sunday and said, "have you ever had that feeling when you see someone you are head over heels for and all of a sudden you're filled with so much love and passion. It's like that." OH GEEZ, THAT WAS DEEP. He reminded the whole congregation to "remember the love and passion you felt when you received the Sprit. Then you'll remember why we do what we do to have it with us". I seriously don't know what I'd do without the guidance of the Spirit in my life. I look back at feelings I got shortly after being baptized and confirmed, and realize that the Spirit has guided me through my life even though I didn't fully recognize it was him.

Last little thought :)
As the Sacrament was being passed on Sunday, I was reflecting on the Atonement and had to pull out my journal to start writing my thoughts. This is what I wrote:

"I'm reflecting on the Atonement and I just can't fully comprehend everything the Savior has done for me. I'm trying to. But I can't. Every day I'm learning something different about the Atonement and I literally "Stand all Amazed". Knowing myself, I love having a final grasp or understand of thing, but when it comes to the gospel of Jesus Christ and His Atonement, there's never a 'FINAL' grasp or understanding. The gospel is about progression. He atoned for us so we CAN progress. There's never a finality when it comes to eternity. So I may not understand all the HOWs or the WHYs of the Atonement. But I know He did it because He loves me. That's all I need to understand. That knowledge is enough."

Christ saw His us when He suffered. Why He chose to suffer for me when He has seen all my mistakes and weaknesses and times I chose to disobey Him, I will never understand. But He also the happiness I could feel, the joy that I could have, and the potential that I could reach. That's why He did it. None of it would be possible without Him. I bear witness of that in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Hope you all have a spirit-filled week!
Mom just told me that she told the Filipinos that when I said I'd "see you in 11 weeks", they all got excited. BAHAHAHA. I am too. Time is slipping and its dragging at the same time and its alllll over the place. But whatever. Life is good :)

Sister Limas

With the Crystal City Sisters: Sister Richardson & Sister Porter.

Oh This Life

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

First of all, SORRY if I sounded over-dramatic on my email last Monday. But, I HAD EVERY RIGHT TO BE!!! After emailing, it was more and more evident that I was not suffering from allergies. By the time Tuesday morning came, I could hardly move. I'm grateful I have companions who scold at me to get back into bed when I'm being stubborn about getting up to stick to routine. I was in bed allllllll Tuesday morning. I don't know if it was a 24-hr flu, or dehydration, or just the fact that all the sleepless nights have finally caught up to me....but I was down. And of course Im lying there realizing every single horror thought of being inadequate to be an STL all of a sudden became a reality!!! Ha, I was groaning in pain and was like, "see, this is why I can't be STL! I am so sick right now! And I'm clearly not sticking to rules cuz I'm in bed! And now I'm not going to get to bed in time because I still have to pack! And I haven't cleaned the apartment. And I haven't cleaned the car. And I have to be at that leadership meeting by 9:30 which means we have to start driving by 6:30am......" and yadda-yadda-yadda. Stupid satan. Ou, he knows how to get on my nerves!

BUT, when I got up at 4:30am on Wednesday morning, I got on my knees and prayed for the strength and energy I needed (which isn't new because that is a day-to-day basis plead for me), and VOILA, I was up and running and ready to roll. I don't even know how I functioned that whole day, but I did. When it comes to the enabling power of the Atonement, my MIND=BLOWN, EVERY . SINGLE . TIME ! I was awake the whole 3hr drive to St Louis and I was still able to somehow talk during the appointments we had in Fenton that evening. So crazy.

Transfer meeting was amazing. But what else is new :) The leadership meeting totally got to me though. I was sitting there and there were the few of us Sisters in the front and this massive amount of Elders behind us, and I could just feel me turtling into a shell! President assured us that "none of you would be in here if I didn't trust you." Thanks, President. 

I felt like I was roaming around aimlessly before transfer meeting though. I felt slightly empty at the fact that a huge chunk of my mission friends were now at home and I didn't have anyone to jump at. But off in the distance I saw Sis Bassett (from Farmington) and I just about flipped! She had driven Sis Craig to transfer meeting, and my little firecracker, Khloe, was with her. OH MY HEART! I was so happy! Khloe just loooooves "missio-marries", so she like dragged me around so I could introduce her to everyone I knew. Then I realized, uhm, Sister Limas, you still have tons of friends here in the mission, so calm yo'self. 

I am SO SO SO GRATEFUL Sister Webster is my companion and the one training me to be an STL. She is one of my favourites, and I'm so glad that out of all people who were to ease me into this, its her. If I could describe her in one word, it would be GRACE. Every person we talk to, she has no hesitation to tell them that she loves them. She speaks of the gospel so simply and so gracefully. Its AWESOME. She has 5 weeks left before going home and I'm bound and determined to make this the best last transfer of her liiiiiiiiife!!!! :D 

This is the first time I haven't white-washed into an area during my mission, so there are some things I'm getting used to. But at the same time, its so great to just get thrown into the work and just ask who we're working with and there's already a list. 

When we got to the apartment after transfers though, Sister Webster starts saying, "So we have MLC on Friday, and then a pow wow with the APs on the 13th. We also need to find out if we're going to DLZLT before ZLT, and IF we're still even having a ZLT".

My reaction: Wait, waaaaaaht? Help me understand mission leadership lingo, please!


I already knew that was coming, but it still freaked me out. I've been trying to calm myself down by saying its just like the Institute of Religion Council....except with missionaries. Right?

The Sisters? THEY ARE GREAT! We cover 5 sets of sisters, and I know 3 of them, so I'm super super excited to be working with them all and doing exchanges. However, I realized that counseling sisters is a whole new ball park!!!! At first I was like, "yeah I can do this. It's like giving advice to friends back home, right?" OOOOK, by the first few days we already had so many calls about concerns sisters had and I was in such shell-shock I had no idea what to say and Sister Webster had to take the phone from me so she could council. I was like "OH MY HECK, I CANT DO THIS! Sister Webster, you need to teach me all this stuff before you go home!!!" Yeah, did I mention that I only have my companion for 5 weeks? So I need to pick up my game! She's been so great and helping me learn all of this stuff though.

MLC (Mission Leaders Council) was BOMB. I was super nervous, but it all worked out. I was sitting there in amazement. I didn't realize how much work my Zone Leaders and Sister Training Leaders put into making us other missionaries happy and well taken care of. I always thought the activities we did and the trainings we were given were things President had suggested. NOPE. We each plan what we do with those we have stewardship under, and then we're held accountable for following through with it. I have always been grateful for my leaders, but my respect for them just grew by a ton. My previous zone leaders, Elder Christensen, Elder Smith, Elder Brown, and Elder Jones were all at this meeting and I was just so flabbergasted by everything I was learning about what all the ZLs and STLs do that my respect for them as individual people grew by a ton too.

So yeah. Now I'm learning all that jazz. I know dealing with these sisters is going to be like dealing with my investigators and that I need the Spirit to completely guide it. And my concerns and personal problems? They are NOTHING compared to what these other sisters have to go through. NOTHING. My problems are like a little blip on the eternal scheme. Compared to what I have to help these sisters out with, I've been absolutely spoiled on my mission. And now its my turn to help them out. I didn't have the confidence to say that until I read President Morgan's reply to me this morning. He said, "you will do great as an STL. Your example will help other sisters progress and yes, you are qualified". Soooooo if that's what President believes, and more importantly, if that's what the Lord expects me to do for these Sisters, then I WILL get 'er done.

Missionary work updates!

We were driving around a trailer park because we had an appointment with Debbie Gray. But we had a little time before her lesson, so we decided to go tracting. We didn't know where, but we got to this street and Sister Webster asked if I wanted to tract it. At first I was like, "uhmmm, i don't know." But as we were driving away, the Spirit was like eating at me and i'm like "no no go back." We found a couple of potentials, and then had to come back the next day to keep tracting. AND WE FOUND SOMEONE! Her name is Starla and she has been so prepared. The moment Sister Webster said, "Joseph Smith saw Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ" she said she got goosebumps! And her little 2 yr old son!!! Oh I just love him! Starla kept saying, "where's grandma?" and he usually responds "heaven". But this time he refused! And she kept asking him why. And he said, "she's not in heaven! She's in school." My heart stopped. It amazes me how close to the veil little kids are. I have been calling the spirit world, "spirit school" since the beginning of my mission. He's right. She's in spirit school.

AAAAAND WE HAVE A BAPTISM DATE FOR DEBBIE GRAY! Oh my heart! She is just the cutest woman ever! Her son in a convert who is trying to become active again. We invited her to be baptized on the 27th, and at first we thought she was going to be so overwhelmed, but she said she was super excited! EEEEK! Pray for her! And Julian, her son, will probably be able to baptize her!!!! YAY! Oh my heart :)

Anyway, that's all for now. 

Oh. There are at least 2 people here with the name "Ariana". And my ward has a ton of young married couples. I'm pretty sure this is Heavenly Father's way of reminding me I'm going home soon. HA. But I love the young couples. They are so fun!! 


That was the craziness of my week. I'm still recovering from being sick. But thanks to the Atonement I'm still alive and functioning :)

OH, did I mention there was a tornado last night? OH MY LANTA, it was crazy!

Yeah, too many things have happened this week. I am all over the place at telling you about it. Sorry! :p

See you in 11 weeks ;)
Sister Limas

One of my favourite families from Paries came to Charleston see me before getting transferred :)
Oh how I've missed them!!! The Farris/Bender/Randolph family!

Me and the kiddos! They have grown up so much!!

My posterity! My babygirl Sister Fernandez and my grandbaby Sister Uta'i :)

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